Good to know my tweet cloud doesn't contain any profanities or

shameless confessions of love for celebrities. #TweetCloud

Sometimes I wish I could tear away from my skin

 so I won't feel the pain you so carelessly inflict on me.

A moot point

No one is safe from the act of betrayal. 

I admit, I had my moments of restlessness; the wandering eye, the somewhat harmless flirtations exchanged through sms, emails, underlying messages, spoken words, body language …... never the actual act of going through with it. But the guilt still hinged on the very existence of the racing heart, sweaty palms and fluttering butterflies in the gut.  Is emotional cheating worse than physical? What is physical anyway; a kiss, a blow, a fuck or any and every exchange of bodily fluid that excludes the act of sharing a straw? It’s subjective. How far would you go before you draw the line and when you do, is it too late?  What is the moral yardstick that constitutes cheating, the ultimate betrayal in a relationship? - or even, a friendship.

Recently I have witnessed such unfaithfulness. A friend getting back with an ex whilst starting a new relationship, the loyal lover who resorted to a casual fling before the end of the relationship, a confused and reckless child playing puppet master to her horde of admirers and the lover of many who’s monogamous to no one but himself. When advice is sought after, it is difficult to take an unbiased viewpoint on the scenario. I try to put myself in both positions and I struggle between giving an honest perspective and a sympathetic outlook. 

If you love someone but not enough, and its time to let go, do you try to ease the pain or do you cut it off with a blade of total honesty on the basis that “you’ve got to be cruel to be kind”?  It’s difficult to be objective when it comes to the matter of the heart. When is the right time to let go? Do we selfishly cling on to someone we no longer love, for the sake of companionship – and – convince ourselves that we do indeed need the person rather than pursue the pure intentions of the heart?

Love continues to baffle and challenge my ideals. There is no fine line, only variations of grey areas, constantly being challenged between the obvious black and the obscure white complexities that make us human.

Take a deep breath, its about to get real bumpy and you’re going to need more than your reasons and shield of defense to argue with the righteousness of what should could have been “Love”. 

☃ Jingle Bells, Moleskine impels ✍

I'm one of those people who'll justify buying myself a present and this year, I'm  getting me the Moleskin Surprise Box : Artistic edition for Christmas for 5 good reasons:

1. I landed a new kickarse job and subsequently...
2. A pay raise.
3. I've been a good girl this year, and as advertisers remind me
4. I'm worth it. Totally!
5. It will complete me. (It had me at Van Gogh) 

So what's inside you ask? Well first off, its not a Jack in the box kinda thing (let me hear you roll your eyes). Its called a surprise box because you won't know which style or color you'll get until you purchase the set. Fact. Contents include:  A pocket diary, a large notebook and a large cahier - all packaged in a Moleskine box. If you know the basic 101 on Moleskines, you'd know it's totally worth it for the price its going for. 1 x daily journal alone can go up to RM125 so its A pretty good deal for RM180 (plus 10% discount from Cziplee+ if you mention twitter upon purchase!). I'd pay full price for the box alone! Yes I'm a Moleskine whore. 


I've already pre-booked my surprise box. Now I'll just have to play the waiting game till mid December. I'm hoping to get it before I leave for my Summer vacation!


F.Y.I Moleskine aficionados living outside Asia, sorry - this one is just for us!

Moleskine Quote 01

My passion for scrap booking & note taking on my Moleskine has returned with fanaticism to the point of sober bankruptcy! I have spent a good RM500 on crafts in less than 10 days (that's equivalent to 6 bottles of non-turpentine-ish wine @ Vintry). I'd rather spend it on crafts to be honest, as I'm very unlikely to piss the craft goods away - after spending a night on it. So that's one way of looking at it, an investment, if you will. Something tangible that doesn't turn to liquid gold waste.

Reading up on Moleskine hacks inspired me to stab a needle through my new moleskin's soft cover. It hurt. It really did but I persevered and eventually managed to carefully sew a button on it. What in the world for? Well, for shits and giggles mostly - and to loop an additional detachable bookmark on my notebook. Additionally, I plan to tie a string around a pen and loop it over the button so it can double up as a detachable penholder. For now, it’s experimental and hangs on the thread of impromptu creativity.

       

Its totally addictive working on my Moleskine and extremely satisfying, not to mention a great distraction from other pressing matters of daily obligations! *Aih...I WILL fold the clothes, wash the dishes and pick up the phone after I organize my craft box!* - which by the way, is expanding and proliferating faster than you can say.... "Mummy, I think I just wet myself".